No matter how many times I attempt to teach it, meditation and non-reactivity always elicit the same kind of confusion. No matter how many times I tell my students- thinking is not a problem, you can’t stop your mind from thinking– they get frustrated about thinking. No matter how many Read more…
Have you ever experienced a time where so much has changed so fast and in a way that affects us all? So much of our outer world is now different and many sacrifices and adjustments have been rapidly made. And yet, there is a challenging contradiction that I want to Read more…
Last week some dear friends of mine from California lost their son. His name is Zephyr and he was as bright as the sun. He was charming and charismatic like his father, soft and beautiful like his mother. He died suddenly and tragically, in a way that left us all Read more…
I’ve got a little secret to tell you. When I shower, I touch myself all over. Get your dirty little mind out of the gutter please, as it’s not what you think. There’s absolutely nothing sexual about the way I touch in the shower. I like to think of it Read more…
There was barely a breeze as we stood, our toes digging into the thick grass, the light getting pinker with each passing moment. It was the end of our last full day of Citta Retreat and we had gathered outside the immaculately built yoga shala that had been our sacred Read more…
This is a post about me stealing. Or not stealing. Or almost stealing. I’m not super proud of the incident and I will warn you: my Mum told me DEFINITELY NOT to write this post. Against her impeccable advice I’m going to do it. So here it is, the story of Read more…
As I sat in meditation this morning I noticed my mind kept moving forward creating little stories and outcomes about things it was afraid of. This is what the mind does- it takes input from the past to prepare for the future. Let’s say you are currently single and subconsciously Read more…
I was only eighteen when I met Demany and within a year we were married. At the time I was a nanny in California and after a hot and heavy romance I received news from immigration that my time in the States was up. We had two options: get married Read more…
We live in a society that values functionality. Keep it together. Pull your socks up. Get on with it. This is the message we receive by well meaning high functioning (and predominantly unhappy) loved ones from the time we are born. Until recently, I didn’t question this social normality. I, Read more…
In March of 2019 I attended a monthlong silent vipassana retreat at the renowned Spirit Rock Meditation Center in California. For a few months prior to this retreat I had been experiencing small flashes of violent imagery in my mind every now and again. They were fast: so fast that Read more…
